Bills in the struggle

From February 1st to March 8th my medical bills were 49 thousand dollars. I believe I can eventually get the insurance to pay some more on it. I'm just not sure.

It's all so unnecessary. If I had never been hit, I'd never need all the medical care! Now, I hurt every day of my life. I limp every time I try to walk anywhere, even to the bathroom. I take all the medications that the doctors have prescribed but I still hurt. Especially on my left side. Both hips hurt, the left much worse than the right. Both knees hurt constantly. I deal with so much pain, that it's hard to tell what hurts the most. That is with meds, massage therapy and chiropractic care. I can hardly think at times from the pain.I go to massage therapy twice a week and massage therapy twice a week just before going to the chiropractor. I see an orthopedic doctor and my primary care doctor about all of it to.

My memory is not good at all anymore. I memorize my grand kids birthdays only to forget them the next time I try to recall them.  I leave myself notes for everything. I can forget from one moment to the next what I wanted to leave myself a note about! My spelling has gotten awful. Things that used to come naturally are a struggle now. The Scrabble Queen has been dethroned and thrown into the dungeon.

I have been thinking about finding a job that is less physically demanding since I hurt so much constantly, but the mental issues would prevent me from learning new information about a new position. I struggle with my continuing education information for my current job. I used to think that the online classes were remedial. Now, I struggle. I guess, I'm lucky that it's not harder. I write every sentence to try to remember the information only to forget it when I'm asked a question.

Something as simple as a walk becomes a major even with added pain once I get seated, but taking a seat makes my hips hurt. It is a never winning struggle.

Starting Again

I had a car wreck. Someone was going 50 miles per hour and hit me because they failed to yield the right of way. I was barely moving.I was shoved 20 feet down the street. It took paramedics half an hour to cut me out of my car.
This has changed everything. I hurt all the time. Especially on my left side.
The biggest hurdle is thinking and remembering.
More on this journey is to follow.